Blind Prophecy

Well, since I’ve been awfully political–or focused on books and movies–in my posts for the last few days, I thought I’d try to update a bit more on the personal life stuff.

I ordered my laptop yesterday. I wanted to get a Powerbook, but that felt a little more spendy than I’m comfortable with while saving up for the big move in June. Plus, my brother-in-law Rob is a freelance computer repair/sales guy and I could give him some business if I ordered a PC product. After looking at so many options, I don’t even remember which machine I ordered, but I remember that it has 120GB hard drive, 1 gig memory, and (in the words of Rob) and “fucking awesome” graphics card. Anyway, it should arrive in the next couple of days, so I’m excited about that.

L and I have played a bit of phone tag for the last two nights. Either we’re forced to have very short conversations or we just can’t connect at a time when we’re both free. He sounds good, though, and he left a cute, long, rambling message yesterday telling me that he had a job interview that went well. He also put some pictures of him St. Patty’s weekend online and he’s letting his hair grow out (I told him he should do that when I saw a picture from a few years ago) and he looks cuter than ever. I still miss him, but it’s not as bad as when he first left. I guess keeping myself hella busy is good for that.

So, both the full-time team members of the marketing department at Bob’s Event are leaving the organization in the near future. First, the second-in-command left and my boss e-mailed me and encouraged me to apply for the vacant position. When I wrote back to V, telling her that I felt that I couldn’t break my commitment to finish my Pride contract on June 15, she wrote back saying that she had accepted an offer elsewhere. I don’t know what this means to the Institute’s marketing deparment, but I’m having coffee with her in a week or two to find out what her thoughts are.

Now, this kinda puts me in a weird place. I loved working at Bob’s Event, and if I want a resume that serious marketing companies would pay attention to, a year or two in one of the two positions at Bob’s Event would be a very smart thing to do. On the other hand, I’ve got my heart so set on moving in June, it’s tough to know what to do now. If I move, all the money I’m saving is going to be moving money. If I get a full-time position at Bob’s Event, then I need to buy a car and get an apartment closer to the mouth of the canyon leading up to Park City – which makes saving for a big move further into the future a lot harder. ::sigh::

Why can’t I just make a decision about my future and have it stick for longer than two weeks? What’s going on with 2006?

So, I’m back in that weird place where someone I know and had a professional working realtionship with has a history of doing internet porn, which I recently stumbled across, and I have no idea what the etiquette is in those situations. I’ll probably just pretend to ignorance if I ever spend any time with this person in the future, but it’s weird. I really want to make a joke and let him know I’m not judgemental about that, but I’d hate to embarrass him. Remember, people, if you film it, it may someday come back to haunt you.

So, one week until the Chicago trip. I’m not sure if I’m excited or nervous about spending four days with a bunch of high school kids (including April Fools Day). I also don’t know if I’ll even have a chance to see Lawrence or not. Maybe it’s best if I don’t have the time, even if I’ll kick myself later for passing up an opportunity to just catch up on his life.

I’m thinking about starting a podcast. Right now, I’m just mulling the idea over, but I’ve been listening to a lot of different podcasts lately, and I think I’d be able to do a show that falls somewhere between the worst crap I’ve run across and the best ones I’ve heard. Or maybe it’s just one more thing that would distract me from my real goals.

Oh, is anyone else watching Black. White. on FX? I’ve come to the point where I run out of the room when most reality television is on, but I’m loving this show. The concept is that they take a white family and a black family, have them live together, and professional make-up artists will help them trade races for different experiences. I think it’s fascinating, and last night’s episode had me in tears. Carmen (the white mother) had an experience that truly shook up her world and changed her perspective and visceral understanding of racism. The whole series is reminding me of my times with the NCCJ‘s Camp Anytown program, and making me want to get involved in more diverse social justive programs again. The problem is, there isn’t nearly as much opportunity for that in Utah (not that we’re even close to problem-free, just that the incredibly low numbers for minorities means there aren’t a lot of places to volunteer without getting more heavily involved than I have the time of inclination for).

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