Drunk post
Saturday, January 23rd, 2010Okay, so some time ago I decided that drunk blogging was a bad idea, and resolved not to blog without a night’s rest to decide it I really want to say what I think I want to say after a night out. Tonight I just don’t feel like I can stop myself.
For those who don’t follow my twitter account, my father had a major health crisis this week. He was admitted to the hospital and the ICU ward early this week with kidney failure (I was told there was another heart attack, but now I don’t know). He’s doing okay now, as far as I’m up-to-date, but I’m not especially sure what’s going on.
Between first semester grades, the not-gentle beginning of the second semester of law school, the summer job search, family crises, and a general feeling of isolation, I’m not sure that I’m in a good place right now. I’m spending some time with my cousin tomorrow, which is good, but I’m not okay. I’m really not. I’ve been disappointed in myself and in the people I thought were my friends in the last week. I’ve also been touched by a few people who turned out to be better friends than I expected. Nevertheless, this blog is the closest thing I have to a diary, so for the historical record, this has been a bad week. Don’t worry, this isn’t a cry for help and I’m way too full of myself to hurt myself in any way. At the same time, I never admit when I’m hurting, so I’m trying to do that now in this strange personal/public forum that is my blog.
(Don’t be surprised if this entry disappears in the next couple days… summer job hunt… professionalism… blah, blah, blah…)
So, yeah, I went out tonight and got a little intoxicated. I posted some embarrassing comments to twitter (I still don’t have the courage to look at the replies). But I’m home (alone) now and hoping that next week is better.
You’ve obviously been going through a lot. I, too, have found blogging to be helpful as therapy during those down days.
Hang in there.
Sorry this has been such a stressful month for you. Your dad and family continue to be in my thoughts. I know how stressful it can be dealing with aging/ill family (my dad has also had a rough winter and I have two siblings that have faced serious illness in the last year), but I’m with in 10 minutes of them. I don’t know how you do it being across country.
As for your grades and drunk blogging: welcome to the human race. It was your first semester of something new. I’m sure you did fine, if not as well as you would have liked. You have a whole new semester ahead of you and I’m sure you will do fine. And stop beating yourself up, there are too many people who are willing to do that for you.
I’m really sorry you have had such a shitty week. For the record, I never thought this was a cry for help, but simply a request for assistance. The tweets aren’t bad at all and I know my reply was certainly tame.
Jere, sweetie, your tweets were not embarrassing at all. Kinda cute actually. made me smile. NOT at your discomfort, just cause it was kinda cute. Not as cute nor funny as a ‘lil bit TIPsy’ phone call at midnight, but still.
I know tough times, from when my dad was sick and the stresses I’ve been feeling as of late, when it all seems out of your control. Rely on your friends, your true friends. You know who they are. Whether they’re there with you in person, or through the Interwebs or a phone call away. When you’re down, the worse thing you can do try to keep it in and deal with it yourself. That’s what friends are for.
Lotsa love, supporting thoughts and of course, HUGS, coming your way…
Man, you are going through a tough time. Law school is harsh enough — believe me I’ve had enough friends/family go through it to know. Like John and Polt, I also know what it’s like to deal with an ill and aging parent. I’ve been thinking about you and your dad’s situation and I checked out your twitter stream to see if you had posted anything new about his condition. As for the confusion about what’s wrong with him (heart attack? kidney failure?) BOY does that sound familiar! It’s hard work managing one’s own health care and I know from experience it’s even harder managing another’s, and getting consistent information from health-care workers (doctors, nurses) who are busy with other patients as well as yourself (or your loved one) is very difficult and frustrating.
I for one am glad you posted this. The internet is no substitute for real-life friends but it still provides an incredible source of support and help — twitter and instant messaging have helped me through some tough times myself, so I know. There are things you’ll say online that you might not say in real life, and you can get support and affection from people you’ve never met (and give it too). It’s an amazing thing.
Fingers crossed for your dad, and here’s hoping you start seeing an upswing in your situation. Hang in there.
As for your tweets, Polt put it perfectly. Nothing cuter than tipsy tweeting
Nothing to be embarrassed about at all.
Cheers
xo
Hugs Hon. I’m so glad things are looking up for your Dad. It is difficult being so far away.
It’s great you can say “life sucks for me right now”. We’re here to offer a shoulder if you need it. Hang in there.
All I can say is I love and admire you!
Feelings happen.
You’re under a tremendous amount of stress so it’s only natural that you feel like you’re in a damned avalanche.
Figuring out that you don’t always judge people perfectly is part of living in the world and it never goes away: you will find friends and enemies both where you don’t expect them until the day you die.
YOU ARE LOVED.
Sending good karma your way, man. Is there anything we can do for you? I could go to the hospital and take some photos of your father. I could bring one of those Mormon casseroles to your family’s house. If you can think of anything we could do for you from SLC, please drop me a line.
Jere Keys Reply:
January 24th, 2010 at 10:12 pm
I got word earlier tonight that he’s headed home tomorrow. I’m also pretty sure that if anyone delivers another meal to my parent’s house, my little sister will burn the place to the ground. But I appreciate the offer.
We’re all entitled to a night of fun ridiculousness and you certainly deserve it with all the stress you’ve been under! But we still reserve the right to make fun of you forever and ever and ever for it
Now get back to the books mister!
I’m so sorry to hear about your father. I hope he recovers quickly. It sounds like you have too much on your plate right now. I hope everything calms down for you soon. It sounds like you could use some smooth sailing.
Sending you a big hug.
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